First Day Home.

Amelia Jane came home today, and Mom was right there with her. I'm still processing all of this stuff from the past few days, and I'm realizing a need to put these feelings and emotions and experiences into words in the coming days. Watching Amelia Jane come to life and being there for her first minutes shook me to a core that I didn't know existed. The only thing that kept me from bawling was that I could simply soak it all in instead of having to talk to people about it. Watching Lia there lying on the cart being cleaned up and cared for was something that I just had to see and observe, and I'm really happy at this point that it was something I could just watch and observe and take it all in. Unfortunately the process itself is a bit of a blur, but the thought of it causes me to well up with tears and happiness and fear and all of those pieces that make up being a father.

Here at home on the first day we of course had to introduce our new little girl to our now big girl. Lily was of course happy to see her mom, and she really took to Lia pretty quickly. She was suspicious of the carseat at first, but after a few sniffs and kisses she realized that Lia wasn't anyone to be scared of. I walked around with Lia for a few minutes, and right out of the blocks I had to change a wet diaper. Lily was really concerned about the strange noise (crying) coming from this little being, and she watched me intently as I started to change her diaper.

Lily is some kind of hound dog who has a strong set of hind legs. This allows her to kick up on her hind legs and look around tall objects or peer at whatever might be on the kitchen counter. Today it helped her to see what I was doing to this little person who was screaming. She realized it was nothing major, but when I put Lia in her crib Lily really wanted to see what was going on. She tried to see into the crib, but she couldn't see inside. Because of Lily's concern (curiosity?) I'm thinking she might actually be an alright dog for us to have with a little baby. She's still showing some interest, but overall she's still doing her same thing.

Each minute that passes and every time I look at Lia I'm realizing what a little miracle she is. Everything about her looks so perfect and so tiny. She's a great little girl.